A scenario that I wish could come true...

nothing in particular...

be able to travel the world...
having a job that can take care of my family, build my dream home / resort place

the guy I love would pre inform my parents on an engagement day... and surprise me by taking me dinner at love at first bite, sitting on the bed they have for dinner... asking the owner if he can play some songs that would indicate whats happening.. our dinner comes... and at a certain song he will pop the question xD
maybe he reads to me the kairi poem ♥♥♥

ooohhh ooohhh
on my wedding day... I have this wholleeee scene planned in my head.... when the bridesmaids come in.. aka you guys...the tangled soundtrack in which repunzel and eugene go around town plays... you guys would go to place while a screen that I pre recorded of my feet walking to the place plays... its a long ass story xD


but then my actual walk in would be with the kimino kioku/memories of you  persona piano soundtrack....

my husband and his men would come in to the song ikimen boogie hana kimi 1 soundtrack :D

I would have a 3 layered cake... but each layer is on a different plate /platform... the first and big one would be a cheesecake made by intercontinental which would be shaped as a star and has two mini keyblades on :D across each other like an X like how they do so in the game...

second . medium size would be a fruit flavored cake which would have a super mario theme on it... and have mini sized luigi and princess daisy on :D

third wasnt decided yet xD but it will be the smallest and choco flavor :3

he would cut the cake with a real katana :D *shwingggg*
I feed him .. he feeds me... a lil cream would be left on my lips... he would use that as an excuse to kiss me xD and I would just stand there.. :D (cause I'm in shock and not expecting that..just silently wishing that xD)

when alllll the single ladies song plays.. I throw the bouquet :3 (and maybe my husband would toss "something" to the single men ...and we would make fun of the ones who caught the stuff by calling them a couple) xD

get lucky by daft punk would be our exit song... and I will wink :p lol

 there would be a derp moment... in which I would ask the people ...snappers to have their cams and what not with them... cause let me take a selfie would play and I want them to snap me their selfies xD a normal camera might be hired to go around randomly xD and the snaps they take would be the perfect editing to the wedding selfie ...even I will take a selfie... maybe xD



another scenario... hopefully one day I could is that... I cosplay... or make me a keyblade... :3

also... I wish I can one day  do animexpo /gamexpo ... a week of amazement... 3 days for animexpo ..one day break .. 3 days gamexpo...

we get the biggest of people that influenced anime ,  the original makers and the subbers from the middle east .. have signings :3 merchandise selling... and alllll artsy people can come and show off their art... to the amine makers... who knows they might get hired :p

first day is official uniform for us organisors... in which we dress up like  snk's different corps... the major organisors will dress up as the survey corps :3 (this is for animexpo)

we shall also get the biggest leading markets in the gaming industry.. like squareenix, namco, atlas ...etc.. to come and talk more about gaming... coding... future plans.. answer questions .. and what not :3

their you can see trailers of upcoming stuff... a tournament would also be held (but there is a lil fee to be paid) in different fields.. like first person shooting, fifa/winning eleven, fighting games too (didnt decide if tekken or any other game) the money gained from the fee payment would be split equally and given to the winner with signed merchandise :3
tournament would be held all the 3 days..
first day: quarter finals
second day: semi finals
third day: finals lol


then we have the rpg - adventure - scifi / fantasy competitions :3 which would be a question/answer based xD

also best cosplay competition which would be judged by the leaders of the gaming industry... prizes not decided yet

get redbull as a sponsor is one thing too xD more sponsors needed xD

first day of the 3 days event will also be official uniform ... where all major organisors would wear a final fantasy 7 SOLDIER outfit and other organisors would wear the ... whats the outfit cloud wore when he was a normal officer??... yeah that one xD


the rest of the days we all can cosplay as who ever we want to xD though our cosplays wont be counted a part of the competition :/ :3

(look at me talking about all this ...as if I can make it happen... lol...

yeah ... you have loads to read lol) 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REI-CHAN

to my dearest gamer

annndddd.......

(by silver keys i mean golden people..... you would need to hug 5 golden people of your choice before wednesday.....see what happens...on wednesday)

Blonde Rangers

i simply love this <3 <3 <3

Liquid Dream man...

what if i became my own dream man?

what if i became zack fair from ff7 ,
 hei from DTB,
shinjiro from persona3,
samurai/ninja/assassin,
racer then i could have a number one fan of my own who could be my bff,
 kratos from GOW,
jonny depp haha,
a guy with scars, doesnt matter how, where or the size of it....even a small cut turns me on,
light bearded,
has a sense of humor, yet is a badass :p
 guy in a suit :p

(this is all i can think of atm)
well that is a bit too much, yet that is my liquid dream man...
from when i was a kid till now.

True murderer

as a spirit
floating upon clouds
i sit and watch you from afar
i can see through your soul
as you lay there
waiting for the light of salvation
as you lay there
waiting to forget what is considered your past
and then i notice the blood that gushes out from your skin
and how it has mixed with my sweat
i realised that it was i who have pierced you
it was i who have pulled you into the darkness
it was me.....who sits here bathing within your ..... tears....

I need a hug...

i honestly hate this....

i thought my new year would have a great beginning...

but it gets bad with each passing day...

i lost my moon light...

i fought with the hand that rocked my cradle...

im losing grip to my vessel...

im losing sanity...

i feel like im getting dumber and dumber...

i cant control what is happening to me...

i feel like im turning into a monster....

and in matter of days...or months...i will be a creature that has a heart of stone and face of pure cold....

December...

My bestie's posts on FB.....her posts -no matter what- always make my day *smile*

and best ones were the i dropped series :P

I LOVE YOU LAYAL!!!!

may we stay BFFs for ever 

:D

and this is how it feels at times....Sleeping....

screaming from joy...

God is looking at me and blessing me and showing me that life isnt all grey and blue...

i lost 2 people in my social life....a friend ....she is a very talented girl and it got awkward between us....and she chosen to remove me from her life and now im respecting her decisions and im staying away....and a great friend who and i admit had a crush on for more than 2 years....he also has decided that its best if we parted and .....well you know how it goes....

but truth of the matter is.....i didn't want to lose them....but i guess our friendship wasn't meant to be and i got into a bit of a depression...

but....
yes there is a but....
as what they say....when God closes a door, he opens up a window....and if you keep looking behind you may miss what is in front of you....

when i decided to get back on my feet
it was weird but i felt happy....i got hyper.....and a lot has happened..
i think someone likes me
ummm....i did a good deed *huge smile* which got me to smile, cause i felt like im useful...
gentlemen ....gentlemen EVERYWHERE!!! hahaha...yes everywhere i go (in college) there is a nice guy being nice to me ...lol
and most importantly...

2 amazing looking italian men are in our college *huge smile*
that united me and my girls and raised our spirits to the fullest :D
I thank God for blessing us with them...
i thank God for blessing me with these events and giving me the strength to look forward....

though i admit....i miss them...
no one stays for ever, right? :)
you just gotta live and let go...
(yet i will be here if they ever thought of returning *baby smile*)

What makes me sad when it comes to socialising...

These phrases always get told to me by various people:

• If you add importance to other people, you decrease your own value and importance. 
• You don't need them.....if they don't need you.
• people that mind don't matter and people that matter won't mind.
• concentrate on those who feel comfy around you.

and many more within that same context...

....but me....being me....I do not always listen..... I put people before me....for I do not know what reason...

and time passes by and they might end up leaving me behind....and in the end it is me who gets sad...

and at times....it's not only being left behind but it could be something like:

• when things get awkward and the other person decides to just walk away instead of trying to make it work, if only you could've told me your reason...or is it cause you are over considering that you are scared to hurt me on the way??
• when a person who claims that they do NOT pretend, then they do exactly that when talking to you!! all i ask is please stop hiding...if you hate me....just say so and I shall leave you alone...
• when someone just gets jealous of me for no reason...then starts calling me fake...I am sorry if my natural look bothers you so much....and I am sorry for being genuine and honest ... 
• people who take me as a threat....here is what you can do, ever heard of "keep your friends close....but your enemies closer!"....well if you take me as an enemy, you can work with that concept....get to know me WELL...after awhile you shall realise that I am the LAST person to take as a threat....(truth of the matter is... I suck at being evil...)

there are a few more points which i have forgotten about ... but these are the main points...because I feel like what could have been a great friendship could be destroyed with these simple steps... and it makes me sad that it had or it will have to end like that... 

who knows....maybe in another lifetime we would be closies...

My social rules...

Okay I just want to say something ....and this may sound very weak of me....but it does not necessarily mean that I am....cause I am NOT....its just how I feel I should be:

I am not a social butterfly...but I am starting to turn that way and I admit...I like being social and I am starting to like people (yes, including those who hate me....I like you...you might make me sad, but I still like you)...

Let us begin:

• You be nice to me, I be nice to you.
• Even if you left me hanging there, I would wait for a while till you get back.
• And when I leave that spot, it is NOT cause I am making it hard for you to find me, in fact....one of the 2 would happen: 

1.  I would either leave trails so you could find me...
2. You won't need to look for me, cause I would've found you...

• I am not scared to being friends with the most NOTORIOUS person, because I believe everyone has that spark of goodness within them and you can't say OR judge a person if you do NOT know them, right? (....get to know them!! you might be surprised *wink wink*)
• I might not be good in telling my feelings, but my actions shows so.....and I apologise if I was being vague .... that is me being nervous *shyly looks away*
• I might be shy at first OR look like I do NOT want to be there next to you....but then again, it is just me being nervous, cause I do not know how to interact and react with people...
• When I act crazy....do not be afraid....I am just comfy around you *smile*
• When I get over-hyped around you....I might just like (have a crush on) you and I do not know how to react around you, so I spontaneously combust around-and act like ed the hyena from "The Lion King"  - you instead (sorry in advance to the future crush and sorry to the one I had a crush on before *looks away*).

Soooo....yes, this is known about me....just thought I might put it in writing....

Please be good to me...

Something i dont celebrate but, Halloween is soon..

having all the proofs yet still confused...

how I felt playing League of Legends for the first time

Loki and Thor

this is exactly how me and my sister are like

Cuteness overload ~huskies~

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

how my tan looks

It is pretty much....like this ...

XD

and if only you saw the shocked faces of my family after I finished dressing up
hahahaha

Sunshine Award

I'd like to thank Eternity for this award it is reaalllyy sweet of you and you are super amazing *smile*

Rules

1. Include the award logo in a post or on your blog page.

2. Answer 10 questions about yourself. These are below.

3. Nominate 10 -12 other fabulous bloggers.

4. Link your nominees to this post and comment on their blog, letting them know about the award.

5. Share the love and link the person who nominated you

Questions

1.What would you most like to change about yourself?

the way i think of things...i used to believe that i was reallly optimistic and see the bright colors, but i realised that im the total opposite >.> plus i need to gain control over my focus (i forget and daydream a lot) XD

2. What is your theme song?

well for now...it is "Black bird" by Alter Bridge 

3.One part of your life memory, action, etc. that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain?

a lot dunno which one to choose <.<

4. What generation do you wish you had been apart of?

If anything i  would choose the prophet Mohammed's time...faith 9000 :P

otherwise i am cool with mine too :)

5. What was your favorite childhood toy?

our consoles (atari, nintendo and the playstation 1) 

:)

6.What's your favorite housecleaning chore?

well.....if anything i think cooking is >.> even though i barely do it XD

7. Do you Tweet?

yep yep but barely anything :P @SueMaameri 

8. Any goals?

ummmm....well i once did.....but now im not sooo sure... 

9. Do you really drink coffee all the time?

only when i have to (im not a fan of it...i love tea or milk shakes more than coffee plus it makes me sleepy)

10. What is the ugliest car you've ever driven and were embarrassed to be seen in?

so far none :P

Nominating

well i shall give this to who ever reads this blog >.> 

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annnnddddd :D

Miss L <3

:D

have a lovely day :D