Made my day

Ashes to ashes..

Ashes to ashes
flesh to flesh
bone to bone
lay me down to rest

Persuading life to free me
A slave I am clinging
To dust that rise up when
The souls fall to their doom
Tears roll down my cheeks
Wondering if our souls shall rejoice again
gloomed out face that once had a rainbow smile
A soulless creature I turned out to be

With my wings cut out and just laying there...dead
Not even the smile of an angel can spare me
Not a touch of a child can life me
Demised world we live in
When will it all end?
to finally rest 
and not feel...


Ashes to ashes
Flesh to flest
Bone to bone

Lay me down to rest...in peace

The Pink color of Grey

The dark ashes of despair arise 
as i walk through the corridors of mystical signals of Life

Even when the moon shines down upon my skin
I still feel like an un-solved puzzle
and the answers to my weary questions never end or never answered

A beautiful scenery appears before my eyes
and a sparkle of hope fills up my soul

Even though I have not found the door to salvation
and I struggle to breathe with every step i take

Yet I can not stop and just give in
I need to move forward and fight on

And then...just then I realise the beauty of the color grey
Right when I fell on my knees pleading for help
I could see the pink color within the grey that covers my thoughts

Twisted everything
and changed perspectives
Now I know what I should do
What I need and maybe one day
It all will be fine...

8-bit heart

If I was princess Peach

You would be my Mario

Even though my heart is made out of pixels

It is more than an 8-bit picture

It pumps up with love and affection

It feels all the pain that you go through

When fighting bad guys

or

When cracking your knuckles on hard stoned boxes

and it grows even more fond of your chivalry and kind

as you always save me from harm

If only i could tell you

Mario..you are my hero

and this 8 bit heart will always be feeling for you 

<3

my first illustration...

its a fail...yet its still a try :D

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Summer coming to an end....

well soon i shall start college again....i will be in my 6th semester inshaAllah :D
im excited and nervous!!!

im getting deeper into my major....

and im finally gonna be a bachelors student!!! :D

very veerryyy exciting....

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on a lover's note:
i hope i get to know my crush even better....
and maybe if i get to know him better...i might be able to get over this crush that i had for him for more than a year....and can accept him as only a friend!!

but it is REALLLYYYYY hard!!!
it sucks!!! :(

Worst feeling ever!!

well its nothing bad or anything....i just hate it...

when you feel love and care for someone else...

its amazing if they felt for you too.....but its hell when they dont...

and you get too emotional....thats really bad!!!

and getting over the dude is horrific!!!

they say "as time passes by.....it heals" but that's such a lie!!!

its un-describable to some!!!

its sad!!

some told me...thats why its known as a "Crush"....cause it crushes a person into bits and pieces  :(


will i ever find true love???
*sad face while looking out the window*

Living in determination!!

soooo......im sooo determined of thiings..
i think i shouldnt be....cause chances are...
not sooo clear...or even on my side....

hmmmmmmm........well...i dunno what to say...except i felt like writing that...lol

I am ALL over the place!!

what i mean is that....i just noticed how many accounts i have in different places...and how many i used to have...

i used to have a Tagged account!!
a PerfSpot account!!
a MySpace .... (still do)
a Bebo!!!

but im active on...
my Facebook *Smiley face*
my Twitter *smiley face*
my Tumblr *smiley face*

and recently i am active in a very interesting forum called the EnglishSabla...
it is very nice and reaallllyyy entertaining....you get to know different peeps on there with their opinions on anything and everything....it was worth it..getting on there |*EXTRA smiley face*

Working out TIME!!!!

so i decided to start working out.....get fit and healthy....

yaayyy.....


not necessarily loosing weight even though i know some people would love that i do that.....but as stated before...to get healthier....
and get my body more active...


well with excersizing...comes some muscle pain
*silly face*

yes i am in pain currently.....my muscles kinda hurt...and my niece said that im doing something right
*silly face*

lets hope i get good results by the time im done with these excersizes :p

Days of Ruins...

i hate
hate
HATE it!!!!

when ever i fight with my mum over something......so simple...

the things she says reallly do hurt.....and they dont really boost off my confidence....
i sometimes wish i could tell that she is shredding me bit by bit
limb by limb
skin by skin

and it burns ....

i dunno what to do....how to react except to and get as far as possible and just.....cry....

the days of comfort!!

well ramathan kareem to all who are out there... *happy face*
i feel sooo happy and sooo relaxed!!!
just went swimming with family and work out at our house gym... (in a bit of back ache yet i can still handle it)

im soooo excited for tomorrow....
i wanna cook something for the family to celebrate a new year for us

annyywayyyy...just wanted to say....
ramathan and kareem....hope all your sins get erased and your blessings increase..
hope you stay close to family and get closer to God
hope you bellies get filled by the time its evening prayer *tongue out*

hope we all have a great month filled with joy, laughter, love and happiness....

The feeling of emptiness

i get this feeling.....a hollow....nothing...just darkness and confusion
it bothers me at times...and other times i tend to ignore it

though one thing is for sure......i get depressed easily cause of it......
but when i talk to you...i feel happy again :D
wish i could talk to u for ever ....

i guess...everyone goes through this and in most cases
a certain person or event can fill in those empty pores of sorrowful thoughts....

fix and patch up .....some stuff....

When life gives you lemons...Make Orange Slurpee....

be creative....
let all your thoughts into words...paper...sketch them down...

dont let the limitations stop you....
if there is an end to something...try to begin something else with it...

it doesnt matter what you get.....
what matters is what you make out of what you got...

and in the end...
you might be surprised of what you made and created :D

Meeting new people

its reallly interesting when you meet a new person...get more experience points....
i love making new acquaintances yet i know not all people you meet along becomes a good friend....or a friend....
some are nice and will give you more meaning to life and some are bad....an will destroy your trust...
yet one thing to know is....who ever you meet along the way / your life journey will give you extra characteristic attributes!!

how about?

how about we just forget about our past and live for the future?
how about we just close our eyes and sink into our happy fields?
how about we just join hands and live happily in this atmosphere?


i guess not everything rolls that way...does it?
yet we still can try... :)

All positive!!

Hey there everyone....
i am the new blogger next door...


i try to be as positive of life as possible....
and i hope that it wont annoy some of you...


anyway.....so i shall blog mostly about situations i went through and how i got through with a touch of optimism...